my why
There are many words to describe our life purpose. You may have used all of these at one time or another:
The call of God on my life is…
The direction of my life is…
The purpose of my life is …
God’s plan for my life is…
My life’s passion is…
My life’s vision is…
My life’s mission is…
God has invited me to…
I was born to…
We may phrase it in different ways, but we can rest assured that God has good plans for each of us and He promises that His plans are to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Psalm 139 tells us that these plans began even before we were born. God was shaping us inside our mother’s womb and saw even then who He created us to be. I love the words of Mark Twain who says, “The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why”. I don’t remember the day I was born and I am very glad I don’t! In contrast, I am glad I can remember the first time God began to give me a glimpse of the why He had planned for me.
As a young girl, I vividly remember hearing a story. It was a true story about a man named David, who was described as having a heart after God. I was not yet double digits, but the joy and wonder of the moment remains so many years later. It was one of those “Aha” moments, when you know down deep that this is God speaking. Even now as I ponder the story in 1 Samuel 16:14-23, God’s word continues to cause such a stirring within me. Saul, the king at the time was being tormented and it was suggested to Saul to search for a gifted musician to play for him and bring relief. David was recommended not only for his musical ability, but because he was a brave man and a warrior, who spoke well, was a fine-looking man and God was with him. So David came to Saul and entered his service. Whenever Saul was tormented, David would take up his lyre and play and relief would come to Saul, he would feel better and the torment would leave him. I did not fully understand everything that was going on in the story, but I remember being mesmerised as I listened!
Since that day, God has continued to deepen my understanding of His invitation to me, but in that moment, I knew with all my heart that what I most desired was to take an instrument and play it with my hands. I desired to be a woman after God’s own heart, a brave warrior anointed to play before the Lord, just as David had played the lyre and then later danced before the Lord with all his might. I deeply desired to have the Spirit of the Lord so present and within me that when I played and worshipped Him, distress would have to leave and those who had been tormented would now be refreshed, healed, free and restored to wholeness.
I began to play the piano when I was nine-years-old and having learned all of five notes with my right hand, I asked God for a verse and sang the word to my five notes. I had “written” my first song!
More recently, I asked God to show me the first time I truly encountered Him. I instantly recalled a significant and recurring memory from when I was three-years-old. As I explored this memory with God, He unveiled where He was for me and my parents (and later for my sister) on the day we sat in the Royal Children’s Hospital waiting for news about the emergency, life-saving surgery my sister was undergoing. This was a memory I had replayed many times, but this time God showed me how He was present with me while we waited. He showed me that He was revealing Himself as a loving Father, who was supporting my parents who feared they may lose a child. He was also revealing Himself as my faithful and ever-present brother Jesus, who sat with me on the floor as I played and wondered if I’d be able to keep this sister to play with. I also encountered Holy Spirit, who was abundantly pouring out God’s love in our hearts, bringing comfort and reminding us to anchor our hope in God’s promises. I was also aware of ministering angels who were worshipping and joining in with God as He sang His song of healing and peace over us all. Afterward I talked all this through with my mum, who confirmed the accuracy of my recall of the physical details of the event and was overwhelmed by how God had shown himself to be so present with us. As I chatted with her, I remained puzzled about one aspect. I knew that I had in fact been playing on the floor with toys…but there was a mismatch.
As God showed me His perspective of this event, I saw a picture of myself playing with different toys. What were these toys that God showed me and why was He showing them to me? Why were these building blocks, little grand piano (with what looked like a sheet of music or a manuscript erupting out of it) and sword now seemingly invading my memory? As I asked these questions, God showed me that in His presence as a three-year-old, He had begun to reveal to me who I was in Him and how I was to partner with Him to release His song of healing to the Earth. He had set alight a spark in my heart that day!
Along the way, I have sometimes lost sight of the sparkle that is the song within me, but I know that God has called me to actively and passionately partner with Him with my God-given gifts, and as I…
shout out the CALM words God gives me, lift my voice and authentically sing my life song;
release encouragement and comfort; and
build people up through coaching, training, writing and song;
God will meet with us, He will write His word over our lives and we will flourish and thrive! (Romans 12:6-8; The Passion Translation | TPT)
Isaiah 58 promises that God will meet us in those places where we have felt demolished and broken. God will bring healing and restoration, rebuild our foundations, repair our broken walls, restore the pathways He has for us and lead us into the place of dwelling that He has prepared for us!
Romans 12:2 (TPT) says to be inwardly transformed by the Holy Spirit through a total reformation of how you think. This will empower you to discern God’s will as you live a beautiful life, satisfying and perfect in His eyes!
It is my joy and honour to walk with you as you embrace God’s healing and transformational process in your life!
so. then. what. is. my. why ?
I joyously & freely sing my life song so that others can walk in healing and discover their own true and authentic God-given voice…until all of creation joins in with Heaven’s song and shines for the glory of God.
Will you join with me today in this adventure to discover your why?
